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2007-04-15T01:36:00.000-07:00

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Today Is the longest day.

2007-04-14T23:34:00.000-07:00

Hey world.
Making people smile is one of the most powerful things you do in communication, and not enought communicators understand this. This is quite true cause it does to me.We understand that seriousness is important and there are serious issues, but we need to surround ourselves with wit. Yes wit.
Now i feel like the world is leaving me far behind. Totally lost in this challenging dimension. No real trust, no real love and no nothing.The only things we can do now is let ourselves out and fight this never-ending war. Cause to me, theres still much more things deadly important coming my way.
Anyway, Rafael does make my day today. Today he said something like this:
L: What are you scared of?
R:I'm scared of the outside because Rafael is there and i don't want to see him.
L: But.. you're Rafael...
R: Now you understand what I'm scared of.
L: -.-"

So bye world.

Soooo.

2007-03-31T03:44:00.001-07:00

Hi world.

Don't cry because you feel like crying. Don't fall if you're feeling it. Just dont.

So looking back at the past of mine could be a very sad thing. Cause i'm young. Now, I grown up. More realistic, more trouble, more wild, more edgy, more boring, more adequate, full of life. Actually i'm pretty happy with my life now. I don't feel threatened, i don't feel insulted and i feel more open. I'm caring that for sure but i'm ruthless for all you care. Now, i don't jump on the hardwood floors when i woke up from bed. So this proves maturity i suppose. When people talks to me in a disgusting manner, i get very cross about it. So this proves straight forward I am. I don't play around the bush cause I know I just don't. Its just sounds too primitive to me.

So people, don't let your life be ruined by someone else's.

Bye.

a short description is better than points form. La.

Haiz.

2007-03-25T00:42:00.000-07:00

I've been miserable lately. As for today, feel so confused. I still have not made up my mind yet. Thanks to my parents, I have to re-think about my choices of instituition. Firstly, i already made up my damn mind to go MDIS and study for 7 months as the course take up only that duration. Then after that, will go for NS enlistment. That was my plan. But after today, after mom blabber on my choice, i was once again confuse. Now she said that i should take poly or ite. Well, i did get to poly but not my course. She said that private diploma is not foreseen by employers. -.- she gets influence by my sister and all. Have they gone insane or what. I mean, have they really check on it on the 1st place? That certainly pull down my hopes and confidence. So my parents now do make a twist in their words. Then they keep asking me why never go poly and ask me what i wanna become in the future. For god damn sake, i've already plan it. I just wish they can just support me without those blabbering nonsense. So now, my mind is tied up. And dad said that I just go for NS first then make my damn decision. And that really pissed me off. And mom says i'm a person who have confidence but don't know how to use it. And she said something that pisses me off. So am I what she said is real?

I really don't know what to do now. thinking makes me more confuse. Right now, I don't have anyone to share this feelings of mine because people are very busy. And i really like to confide to myself. So do I have any future? I have to think all over again...

Bye.

Pissed.

2007-03-14T15:27:00.001-07:00

Tell you what, i'm kinda pissed off right now. I don't know why. but lately, i've have this feeling angst of mine is outta control. So am i'm piss off at someone or am I just imagining things? but hey, i think its the 1st one. Cause you know why, i'm very dissapointed in someone. Someone whom I cared much and never thought things could go wrong. But yes of course, in the reality world, i'm wrong. I feel i'm so caught in the middle. Tried my best to do things right for the someone and then it get wasted. yeap WASTED. Like i didn't see it coming. For a moment I thoughtthis wasn't for real but sure enough it is. Aww. So Sad. Al is a loser. He didn't win. He does things crap shit that no one gives a fucking care. But so what. Of course i didn't care. Eh wait. I'm lying. Damn it. This is so so sad. I even lied to myself. Why? i don't know.

I always ask myself why i'm making so much troubles for myself just to make someone feels good and happy. Giving he/she what they wanted. I mean, I don't do things for fun unless its a harmless pranks. Don't people care a thing or two about me? Why my existence? Why help? Wy trouble so much? So many Why's and no answer to it. Really sick of this. Sick sick sick.

So does things happen because of a reason? yes they do. Of course that,I believe. Sigh. I don't wanna look back anymore. its too much of me to handle. I wanna be the meanier me. Mean than ever. SO how will that possible? I'll soon find out.

Bye.

Update.

2007-03-08T06:23:00.000-08:00

Ok. Most probably people are still very upset about the outcome of the posting. I'm in the same boat as you people out there. even though I've gotten a course at TP, it still didn't amuse me at all. Anyway, i got a course in diploma in Info-comm. well, i don't seems a bit interested in this course. It's funny why i didn't get the internet and multimedia developement. and of course my diploma in leisure and resort managment has gone down the drain. and how was I to know that the 1st choice of mine was COP=12? ahaha. So went to appeal with the guys at TP. So if i get Internet & Multimedia Developement, then i would go for it. if not, high chance I would take up shatec under culinary skills. Was viewing shatec webbie and i saw the diploma in tourism management. But the course for one academic year would cost me a whooping 12K. That wasn't included the uniforms, locker, etc. As for the culinary skills, it cost about 7K. so i guess its okay. 3 years course. Anyway, I would rather do things that i'm very interested at. no point doing things that you know you dont fancy at all. Wasting your damn precious time. c'mon, we're not getting any younger.

So the dae result will be out next week hopefully. everyone is getting busy. so am I. But i try to make time for myself. ahh.. will be goin out with the guys tomorrow. then cafe del mar? woohoo. at last break free from work at stuffs. And i done my damn shoppin. total was $180+. so the only things left to buy is my damn sneakers and sennheiser headphone which i've been eyeing lately. cheers.

Updates.

2007-02-28T21:26:00.000-08:00

So i didn't do much update. was rather busy with stuffs and work. feeling so damn estactic that I don't bother to update. gee.

So here's an update. I just gotten my pay. just check my account to see the transfer. so I do get my $332++. Thinking of buying some damn stuffs that been eyeing from the day I saw them. here's a list:-

-sneakers at Infamous
-shirt at Topman
-coduroy pants at Pull n' Bear
-sennheiser HD 202
-climatelite shirt at Adidas
-storage disk

GRRR. So should I spend or should I not? The pleasure is so overwhelming. GRR.

Work been tough lately. So difficult for me to understand people and people to understand me. It's just that maybe we're not meant to work together or something which I'm totally agree on. Basically, I don't mind superior authority hates me. Mind you, there no one in the world people would not hate. Even you. I just don't fancy people who desperately act infront of me like a psycho freak. ahuh. So my point, work-wise is never easy.
PS: This part of my post has nothing to do with my work collegues. so mind yourself.

So thats all. so tired. to top that, I will be working at the night shift. grr. See that psycho freak again. Mg.

Bye.

update.

2007-02-15T15:30:00.000-08:00

It's been long since I last updated. well was quite busy over the few days. but here's what happened during those days.

9th feb. gotten back the o level result. was happy with my result but not so sastified. LOL. i don't even get aim on my target. lol. But on the lighter note, all the courses that i want to take up is offered in my slip. i mean ALL. haha. so was feeling happy after some moments of fear and sadness in school. to all my friends who doesn't make it, continue to strive for success. it takes a whole lot of determination to reach your goals. you can make it. For those who make it to poly or JC, good for you. As for me...thinking lot of this making me feel tired. lol..If i get accepted to my course, i will have to go to school again. haha. at least for the best and new beginning. got to stop here. working now. bye

Shagged.

2007-02-06T23:49:00.000-08:00

Result day is coming. another 2 more days and that's it. all now relies on my fate itself. been doing alot of thinking lately and that add ups the burden in me. now i feel the tension. what makes me in the future is just this thin slip of paper. maybe not. in life, we have so many opportunities that life has to offer. we just have to decide one for ouself. the right one. sure there's a rocky road at the straight road, but if we know how toget away from it, we will get away from it. I don't wanna start talking about miracles because that ain't happen only once in a forever years.

for the fellows out there whose taking the result on this coming friday, i hope the best for you. pray hard and accept what we are given. we've been told that we never knows what coming for us..for we shall never predict our own future.

Bye.

Love.

2007-02-05T19:50:00.000-08:00

My term of the word Love.

Love is actually quite scary... because just over the fence lies hate... and over the horizon of love and hate is the great slumber... one never knows which road he is taking when he is blinded by the "love". Love is very much a defination, for who among us really experienced true love? Like never. It is said a mother's love is the one true love, because it forgives n shelters and sacrifices for the sake of her child. as the years go by, the words "i love ya" becomes kinda of meaningless in my vocabulary... for i have seen n known of pple who are attached and stil flirt around, and at end of the day, they still go home and pretend nothing happened. worse still are those who are married and have kids, which i really can't understand why they would go to such risks for a moment of pleasure. does those vows taken before the priest n witnesses so hollow? to be faithful? lol. I cant say i dun believe in love 100%. it exists, but perhaps in a different place or dimension. no point putting my fragile heart in the front line to be taken for a ride or be shot down when its of no use anymore. now its like i'm in the eye of the storm... peaceful... quiet... but anytime, i wil be whipped away by the furious of my emotions again... maybe then in the fury of the storm, can i lay down my burdens and pain...?

Just a thoughts. sigh.

Bye.

Chill.

2007-02-01T23:39:00.001-08:00

At 3pm, get out from my house and headed to Vivo City to meet Sarah & rill. I wasn't expect to go Vivo due to some circumstances. but i just go instead. Went for late lunch at BK. Then headed down to Clarke Quay TCC. Was there to have interview with the TCC manager but he was told to be on thaipusam. So we just filled in the application form and chilled then. The environment was really fantastic. The breeze was just damn fine. The night awesome. Well, treated the guys some coffee blended. I really hope to get TCC as a job as I am keen to work there and be part of the family. so chilled from 7pm to 9pm. Then off home. The train is always packed.

Tomorrow a treat from rill on Seoul Garden. Great. See you guys later.

Ska.

2007-01-24T04:14:00.000-08:00

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Lala.

2007-01-19T22:56:00.000-08:00

Today just stayed home and stick to my cardio training. Been ages since i done them. And now i'm getting aches. So it means they're working. heh. Since mom had gotten her shop on Jan 1st, i got the whole apartment to myself. Heh. you wouldn't have to think what i've been doing. haha.

So bought my luch at LJS. Watch Prison break. Marathon again since i've bought the complet season yesterday. Man, were those great. I mean, the quality was a top notch. English subtitles were promising. And best of all, there were no commercial break or advertisement. Hah. I will be continuing watching later on. but not soon but later. :P

With my pay, i have just use for my treats for my friends. And I've still have some money in the bank. And hell no am I gonna spend those greens selfishly. I'm gonna save up in bank till it reach thousands. I mean i hadn't even reach there yet. So here's a goal.

Bye.

Fucked up.

2007-01-18T03:25:00.001-08:00

Well today was a bad day. Ryn can't make it for today due to her "reason". Thenwent for the interview and the manager was so damn fuck up attitude. and he said that i'm not ready for the job and decided to reject my application. Whatever. I just let it go and think of the bright side. Haiz.. didn't have the chance to go for TP open house due to some last min cancellation.

Went HMV with faris to find my Schindler's List VCD. They had in DVD format but not in VCD. Will check out at Heeren next time. So bought Prison Break Complete Season 1 at $47.90. Excited. So basically, today was a waste and i swore i could done better things than that. -.-

Fucked up already.

bye.

Happy Day.

2007-01-17T08:30:00.000-08:00

Well, today i filled in the application form for Secret Recipe, Suntec City. The place was like super slack and fun to chill. Haha. Unlike Earle's Swensen which I don't wanna get much further to. Treat Ryn & Rill and myself there. Then hang out with Faris as he was working there too. Well that was just now...

Took train home. Went to Hg Mall to buy some drinks. Went to the 3rd floor toilet and the cubicle. I found a wallet. Was really thinking of taking it back home. So I did. Upon reaching home, i look inside the wallet. It belongs to a foreign worker. China citizen i suppose. Inside contain 45 bucks, POSB card, EZ-link, Keys and Work/visa permit(important). Suddenly i began to feel wrong. seriously wrong. I felt guilty & imagine how that person might be feeling now. Having lost his personal stuffs. Moreover with that work permit. If I were in his shoes, i will definitely feel miserable & lost. Somemore his a foreign worker. My mind went completely blank. I stood up from the toilet seat and rush to the phone. I dialled his handphone number. He wasn't able to speak English. But he managed to catch some of it. He let some english speaking stranger talked to me on the phone. So we met at Hg Mall Popular. Well i could see the worriedness and tense in his face. Well i am proud that i have done the right thing. I don't want to feel bad. Taking strangers money when they are not yours. The sense of responsibilty in myself help me to do the right things. I learnt something from this incident. Something that is very hard to explain but lies in yourself beneath. So i've been thinking...what if that were my wallet to be lost? hmmmmm. Think twice people.

Just too happy. Interview tomorrow and TP open house. So gonna look forward to it man. I had enough of swensen already. not the staffs but the management people. Those 3 faggots. ahhhhhh..

Bye.

Cold.

2007-01-12T22:14:00.000-08:00

How i wish i can reveal who i'm truly am to all the people around me. Am I afraid? I guess so. It's just that maybe I'm not ready. Yet. It's just so hard. Whenever I think about it, it makes me so mad. Well maybe one day, all things will came itself bit by bit. As for now, I have to be focus on myself. On what to do. I don't care responses. It's so cliche. Man.. do I in need to be fearless for now... agrhhhhhhh...

Friday was so lonely. To make it worst, the weather was cold. Brr. I don't mind the chill-ness but no company? haha. Nice weather to make love also. (evil laugh) haha. Cold afternoon with my cat. Just lazing around at my couch for a cool nap. Ah.. with my fave pillows, no wonder I can get so fast asleep. I get to hug and hug and hug. heha. Well nothing much to do. Comp has been a bore. bleah..

Tomorrow having concert at NP. My last performances. I wouldnt have much time to commit to a band. I'm so sick already. After tomorrow, I'm over with band. tired.

I'm waiting for payday. Fuck. it's like so long waiting for 1st pay. Yawn...

My bed waiting for me. Ah its gonna be a cold night. Bye guys.

Fun day.

2007-01-09T23:54:00.000-08:00

Accompanied my close girlfriend to the salon. At last seen the changes. lol. Thanks for the treat Ryn. she spent a whopping 30 bucks for me. Heh. How sweet.Headed down to PS for lunch & do Ryn's shopping. Well she shopped much today. Got her salary, thats why. Grr.Shopping with her cuzzie. Well i was window shopping only. I was so tied up to whether to buy that sweatet or not. Of course I'm buying one. tomorrow with a friend. Heh.Met aisyah & arip at Starbucks. chill. Then Farhan friend came along. chilled till 10.45pm then off to take train. Grr. Was so fucking tired. Having work tomorrow at 11am. Sheesh.. I am so dragged. Nevermind. 4 hours only. then meeting a friend. woohoo.Okay I've done my update people.Bye

Supper.

2007-01-09T03:30:00.000-08:00

1/2 of the staffs.
L-R: Fahmi, Me, Sukri, Shahrill.
L-R: Fahmi, Me, Sukri, Ismail.

Well supper was great today. Have loads of fun and foods. Tired anyway. After supper, waited for the rain to stop and hail a mercedez prestige cab back home togther with yan, ivan & xiang ming. Reached home at 3am and i'm like so fucking tired. Off from work later. great.

Bye.

3rd Post.

2007-01-05T23:52:00.000-08:00

Work today was much more chill but boring as usual. Earning have dropped 40%. How cool. Ice-cream runner again. heh chill. I wanna thank Ryn for the chicken baked rice. Haha. She & her workmates bought foods from swensen. Sheesh I can't afford to buy one of the food here. Darn.. Just waiting for my damn pay. Great. I'm off tomorrow. I thinks i'm gonna chill at home. Basically, no plan. Nah...i wanna take care of my naughty cat. hehe. She is such a naughty girl..

I'm getting many eyes & smiles on me today at MRT back home. Haha.. Is it me or is it my imagination? Strange... hahaha..

Bye.

2nd Post.

2007-01-05T00:25:00.000-08:00

It's been ages since i last update my post. Much things have been cropping up in my life lately. Well, you get older, you get more responsibilities. Didn't i mention i gotten a job already?

Hah. Gotten a job at Vivo City Swensen. Not ordinary swensen but much high-end services & scrumptous food delights. Been working since 14 Dec 2006. Work was tiring indeed. Duh..which work doesn't? Will be working later at 12 noon. It's gonna be a hell boring time there. customer have been driving me nuts.--silent-- Well, above all, i got to admit swensen Xmas log cake(macademia with hazelnuts) was superb. Thanks for the free log cake.

As this is my 2nd post. let make it short and simple... I'm too tired to blog anyway.. I'm just a pathetic fucktweet. ah........but hey, screw the conservative singaporean customer for making me acting like this. They should know how we workers feel. its not like as if our human mind aren't having the same feeling. It's not even foreign. Xenophobia is not what i'm trying to say. but hey, if you put yourself into our shoes... ahhh. Nuts.

Bye.

1st post.

2007-01-04T07:58:00.000-08:00

Let this be my first post for the year 2007. I have to delete my previous blog entries as it lag my blog.